It's a new dawn... it's a new day... it's a new life for me and I'm feeling good! (Michael Buble)
Woke up ready to tackle my lack of fitness motivation. The other lacking motivations will just have to take a number. I can really only be held responsible for one thing at a time. Downloaded MyFitnessPal to my blackberry and got my fat rear end on the treadmill. Calculated out the nutritional value in my morning coffee and entered it into the program. I'm on a roll, now I just have to keep this going.....
It was a bit of a wake up call when I found myself shopping for new Spanx yesterday. That in itself isn't the frightening part... I already own some... and I was looking for a different pair to go under a dress I just bought. I mean, there's nothing wrong with a little smoothing helper to make you look and feel your best. I've had kids, things aren't where they used to be and the texture of my fleshy parts is... well... FRIGHTENING! But why, oh why can't I just get my act together and give myself the advantage of losing the 5lbs it will take to make me feel that much more confident in this sassy little red number? No... not me... I try to take the more expensive and lazy way out.
Well not today! Today I already put in the treadmill time before breakfast! So there blubber monster... today, you lose!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Such a scaredy cat
Doesn't it feel good to have a plan? I always feel relieved when I come up with an elaborate plan even if I have no clue how to force myself to follow through. It's like my brain just needs to know that in fact, I am capable of thinking strategically even if my adherence is less than 50%. Things seem to fall into place more easily and my stress level subsides greatly.
So now that I have this new "plan" what on earth do I do with it? Follow it? Well, duh. Mustering up the courage is a whole other kettle of fish! I know exactly what I need to do... this should be so simple! Why is it that I can't take the first steps? Day by day, I find legitimate (or otherwise) excuses of why I should put it off until tomorrow. I am really hoping that by the end of this week I can proudly say that there is no going back, that I am fearlessly moving forward into the unknown!
but... I will probably wait until Friday...
Oh yes... current weight: 172.2 (down from 176.6 last week!!)
So now that I have this new "plan" what on earth do I do with it? Follow it? Well, duh. Mustering up the courage is a whole other kettle of fish! I know exactly what I need to do... this should be so simple! Why is it that I can't take the first steps? Day by day, I find legitimate (or otherwise) excuses of why I should put it off until tomorrow. I am really hoping that by the end of this week I can proudly say that there is no going back, that I am fearlessly moving forward into the unknown!
but... I will probably wait until Friday...
Oh yes... current weight: 172.2 (down from 176.6 last week!!)
Monday, February 7, 2011
Dance to the music... and don't stop
We all KNOW this is true, but how often does life get in the way or we're just too busy in our day to day lives to remember to take advantage of every single moment we have? The busy stuff is just noise. We're not going to look back with joy on folding laundry or tear up at the thought of having dinner ready on time. Are those things important?? Sure... but if the day to day stuff is being accomplished at the cost of experiencing more... well in my opinion, it can wait. Opportunities to spend quality time with the people we love are endless. Somehow they seem to slip right on by without notice.
Look around you for inspiration. Find a project to work on at home as a family, get outside and just enjoy the shape of the clouds. Stand outside in a downpour and listen and notice just how loud the rain can get, stomp in the puddles. Go for a walk, notice the bees dancing from flower to flower and savor the dizzy flight. Go to the park and don't watch your children play, swing with them! When was the last time you felt that rush? Build a blanket fort in the living room. Giggle! As often as possible!
At the end of the day we are all tired, we are all stressed, there is always a reason to mentally check out. The more you succumb, the harder it will be to drag yourself out. Break the cycle now, you won't regret it!
My plea to you is: DON'T ALLOW THOSE MOMENTS GO BY!
There is no reasonable excuse.
Oh yeah, and I am currently at 173... ugh... but I am trying again and that's what counts!
Monday, January 24, 2011
Dear ankle,
Although I am well aware that you are attached to a very stubborn person, you no longer have the right to that personality trait. I grow impatient with your unwillingness to heal and I will no longer succomb to your constant complaints. Slightly higher in geography is a gluteous maximus that grows in girth everyday that you refuse to comply with my exercise requirements.
Seriously, enough already!
Although I am well aware that you are attached to a very stubborn person, you no longer have the right to that personality trait. I grow impatient with your unwillingness to heal and I will no longer succomb to your constant complaints. Slightly higher in geography is a gluteous maximus that grows in girth everyday that you refuse to comply with my exercise requirements.
Seriously, enough already!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Need to lose weight? Don't hide the scale!
I've been feeling my weight start to creep up little by little so what did I do about it? I put the scale away in the cupboard!! WHAT?!!! Still not sure why that made sense at the time but I know it didn't help me in my weight loss quest! Yeah, so this morning when I got dressed and my clothes rebelled and cried out in agony as I tried to force them over my expanding body I decided it was time. Time to get serious, time to get back in the game. Drag out the scale and dust it off. Stepped once and closed my eyes... opened one and forced my gaze down to the neon display. NO! Can't be! It's been in the cupboard on it's side, it needs to reset... yeah, that's gotta be it. Let it reset and step again. Hmmm... that's still not right. Again... ok, ok, I get it! I have ignored, nay, beaten down the little voice that tried to warn me. And here I am with plenty more of me to show for it.
176.4
Anyway, I am trying to incorporate my new inspiration seeking goal as often as possible. The 'everyday' part of it isn't happening yet... but I'll get there. My family has been doing our best to have new experiences and adventures and we've been pretty successful.
Here's to finding your inspirations, cheers!
176.4
Anyway, I am trying to incorporate my new inspiration seeking goal as often as possible. The 'everyday' part of it isn't happening yet... but I'll get there. My family has been doing our best to have new experiences and adventures and we've been pretty successful.
Here's to finding your inspirations, cheers!
Monday, December 27, 2010
The small things
My goals for 2011:
Since this very well may be the last full year the human race survives on this planet (end of Mayan calendar), I have only one goal. Find inspiration. Everday. Simply.
Footnote to said goal is to document; in picture, in writing, in expressed love and joy.
You might think this sounds like a severe case of ADD, but to me this is really living. Every moment.
I challenge you to do the same, it might be more difficult than you think. Slowing down long enough to recognize the beauty all around is the real challenge to be overcome. The rest is easy... just enjoy.
Since this very well may be the last full year the human race survives on this planet (end of Mayan calendar), I have only one goal. Find inspiration. Everday. Simply.
Footnote to said goal is to document; in picture, in writing, in expressed love and joy.
You might think this sounds like a severe case of ADD, but to me this is really living. Every moment.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
One year... 36 lbs
Just about a year ago I finally got fed up with the sheer volume of how much of me there was to love. We had just moved, hubs was on the job hunt yet again, and life was full of unexpected twists and turns. I wasn't able to keep up. Everyday my body ached and cried out for less to lug around. I was lonely and depressed. So the journey began. Lets see what worked and didn't...
*Bought treadmill and good shoes...
Definitely helped jump start things. Thank goodness for Netflix and networks who stream their shows. The distraction would keep me on for up to 90 mins at a time. Shoes that I liked and felt good certainly gave me one less reason why I didn't want to. Finding the time wasn't always easy, but then again I love to make excuses.
*Started taking multi vitamins...
On the advice of a friend, I tried Spark (Advocare) first. Yes it initially gave me energy, and an annoying stomach ache. After a week or two the effects wore off and I gave up. Researched various nutrients and minerals with emphasis on women's health, weight loss, and depression. Found a formula that seemed to have a nice balance of what I felt would be important to me. I could feel a subtle difference overall and do think this helped get my chemistry balanced.
*Found a local meetup.com group...
Depression is a vicious cycle and loneliness was killing me. Faced my social fears and forced myself out of the house. While there are MANY benefits to working at home, social interaction is not one of them. I was so lucky to find a group of women that were welcoming and had similar interests right off the bat. I know this isn't typical and sometimes it takes many tries and I was prepared for the trial and error.
*Got a walking partner...
As the spring and summer allowed, I got out there with a friend and walked away our issues. Talk about inexpensive therapy!! I think most of our walks were spent airing our grievances about husbands, kids, our thighs, life in general. But at least we had a healthy release and we both felt soooo much better every single time. We also shared so many epiphanies about health and weight loss and mental blocks. This step in my healthy journey was by far the most effective.
*Water, water, more water...
I find that if I have a glass of water with a straw in it at the ready, I will drink it without a second thought. Peeing all day is a little annoying, but I watched the scale tip in my favor almost every day. There are many times that I start slacking on the water and the stubbornness of the needle on the scale is proof positive that water and LOTS of it is essential.
Yes I still have my struggles and challenges. Yes I still have dark and lonely days, but more often I have good ones. I am 36 lbs lighter (as of this morning) and I have clothes that fit. I don't end everyday in pain. I don't need medications to make me feel normal (I was teetering for a time). I can find small victories everyday and even sometimes... joy!
I'm a work in progress and I always will be. But I like me.
*Bought treadmill and good shoes...
Definitely helped jump start things. Thank goodness for Netflix and networks who stream their shows. The distraction would keep me on for up to 90 mins at a time. Shoes that I liked and felt good certainly gave me one less reason why I didn't want to. Finding the time wasn't always easy, but then again I love to make excuses.
*Started taking multi vitamins...
On the advice of a friend, I tried Spark (Advocare) first. Yes it initially gave me energy, and an annoying stomach ache. After a week or two the effects wore off and I gave up. Researched various nutrients and minerals with emphasis on women's health, weight loss, and depression. Found a formula that seemed to have a nice balance of what I felt would be important to me. I could feel a subtle difference overall and do think this helped get my chemistry balanced.
*Found a local meetup.com group...
Depression is a vicious cycle and loneliness was killing me. Faced my social fears and forced myself out of the house. While there are MANY benefits to working at home, social interaction is not one of them. I was so lucky to find a group of women that were welcoming and had similar interests right off the bat. I know this isn't typical and sometimes it takes many tries and I was prepared for the trial and error.
*Got a walking partner...
As the spring and summer allowed, I got out there with a friend and walked away our issues. Talk about inexpensive therapy!! I think most of our walks were spent airing our grievances about husbands, kids, our thighs, life in general. But at least we had a healthy release and we both felt soooo much better every single time. We also shared so many epiphanies about health and weight loss and mental blocks. This step in my healthy journey was by far the most effective.
*Water, water, more water...
I find that if I have a glass of water with a straw in it at the ready, I will drink it without a second thought. Peeing all day is a little annoying, but I watched the scale tip in my favor almost every day. There are many times that I start slacking on the water and the stubbornness of the needle on the scale is proof positive that water and LOTS of it is essential.
Yes I still have my struggles and challenges. Yes I still have dark and lonely days, but more often I have good ones. I am 36 lbs lighter (as of this morning) and I have clothes that fit. I don't end everyday in pain. I don't need medications to make me feel normal (I was teetering for a time). I can find small victories everyday and even sometimes... joy!
I'm a work in progress and I always will be. But I like me.
Friday, December 3, 2010
What's my body shape? I'd have to say "Big Bird"
The feeling of being 'tiny' was fleeting. Probably back in August, I hit a point in my weight loss journey where my body was changing more rapidly than my amazed mind could keep up with. I felt so little! Measureably, not much has changed since then although I am comfortably in the smallest size pants I have worn in 10 years.
Now I see all the lumps and bumps again. Where did they come from? Where they there in August? How did I not notice them before?? And what the heck are these flabby hunks of flesh taking up residence on my ribcage?! Humpf! I know, I know, it's so very easy to see the dark, self-loathing aspect of it all instead of congratulating myself on how far I've come.
On a positive note, I've started doing Zumba which after 2 classes I have decided to start taking tylenol pre-emptively. Yeah it's beating me up! I enjoy the movement and the crazy enthusiastic women who don't give a crap how insane they get when they are in the zone. They're awesome! Tonight and tomorrow are flashmob rehearsals with the mobbing happening tomorrow afternoon somewhere in Seattle. Really excited about that, it's a fun routine! And if it rains... we'll stand under my umbrella... ella... ella...
Now I see all the lumps and bumps again. Where did they come from? Where they there in August? How did I not notice them before?? And what the heck are these flabby hunks of flesh taking up residence on my ribcage?! Humpf! I know, I know, it's so very easy to see the dark, self-loathing aspect of it all instead of congratulating myself on how far I've come.
On a positive note, I've started doing Zumba which after 2 classes I have decided to start taking tylenol pre-emptively. Yeah it's beating me up! I enjoy the movement and the crazy enthusiastic women who don't give a crap how insane they get when they are in the zone. They're awesome! Tonight and tomorrow are flashmob rehearsals with the mobbing happening tomorrow afternoon somewhere in Seattle. Really excited about that, it's a fun routine! And if it rains... we'll stand under my umbrella... ella... ella...
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Siren Song of the Candy Monster
It calls to me...
It promises to soothe all my bad feelings for at least a second or two...
Somehow I realize that once again I am standing in front of the Halloween bucket of candy with an empty wrapper falling from my fingertips. Ugh, I didn't even want this stupid hunk of chocolate, so why am I eating it?? Because it's there. There never has to be any other reason than simply... because it's here. Normally, I let the kids devour as much as their little tummies can handle on the night of trick-or-treating, brush their teeth and call it done! But this year we're all fighting colds and not feeling the greatest so I limited their intake. But at what cost? My waistline and sanity, that's what! Stupid candy calls to me all day long and when the kids ask for it, I am able to put their health first and say no. Why can't I say no to myself? I need a plan to make it disappear that doesn't include it entering my mouth.
After I have just one more...
It promises to soothe all my bad feelings for at least a second or two...
Somehow I realize that once again I am standing in front of the Halloween bucket of candy with an empty wrapper falling from my fingertips. Ugh, I didn't even want this stupid hunk of chocolate, so why am I eating it?? Because it's there. There never has to be any other reason than simply... because it's here. Normally, I let the kids devour as much as their little tummies can handle on the night of trick-or-treating, brush their teeth and call it done! But this year we're all fighting colds and not feeling the greatest so I limited their intake. But at what cost? My waistline and sanity, that's what! Stupid candy calls to me all day long and when the kids ask for it, I am able to put their health first and say no. Why can't I say no to myself? I need a plan to make it disappear that doesn't include it entering my mouth.
After I have just one more...
Monday, October 25, 2010
My family lives in the eye of my storm
I am like a one-mom production crew when it comes to the life my family lives. I have been SO stressed out with new changes at work, new changes in our routines, things I keep forgetting until the last moment, money, bills, everyone else's needs.... you get the idea. I had a 20 minute meeting with my calendar this morning and consulted all the hidden places I keep stashing all the things I need to do and tried to get it all in a centralized location. Time will tell if I was successful in this feeble attempt at organization. BREATHE
Need to fit in some afternoon/evening stretching/yoga/exercise. I have been dealing with tension headaches for the past week (I also think an evil bra was a contributor as well). My more-wonderful-than-usual husband was kind enough to try and work out a tiny percentage of the kinks running down from my skull to mid back. I have this nagging feeling that getting back into a good full body stretching/exercise routine would be EXTREMELY helpful. Have I convinced my lazy booty to do it yet? Well... no, not completely... but I will attempt it. Small steps.
Also, what the hell is up with increased flab with no weight gain?? The scale today told me 170.8 which made me perfectly happy and yet... there are areas of flab that are much more grab-able and squishy. WHERE DID THAT COME FROM? Not nice... maybe my body is trying to convince my brain to get focused on the task at hand.
Here we go... wish me luck!
Need to fit in some afternoon/evening stretching/yoga/exercise. I have been dealing with tension headaches for the past week (I also think an evil bra was a contributor as well). My more-wonderful-than-usual husband was kind enough to try and work out a tiny percentage of the kinks running down from my skull to mid back. I have this nagging feeling that getting back into a good full body stretching/exercise routine would be EXTREMELY helpful. Have I convinced my lazy booty to do it yet? Well... no, not completely... but I will attempt it. Small steps.
Also, what the hell is up with increased flab with no weight gain?? The scale today told me 170.8 which made me perfectly happy and yet... there are areas of flab that are much more grab-able and squishy. WHERE DID THAT COME FROM? Not nice... maybe my body is trying to convince my brain to get focused on the task at hand.
Here we go... wish me luck!
Friday, October 8, 2010
Look OUT! The food pyramid is crashing to the ground!
HAH! Did I really say "portion control"???? Yeah... okay... maybe a teeny bit of that going on. It's been snack city around here today. In my weak defense, I was a work-a-holic today with little time for making good eating choices. The kids and I ate a loaf of banana bread. That was our lunch and snacks. Balanced? Not even close, but hey, it could've been a drive through just to keep us going. Of course that would have required my leaving the house which is not commonplace when work is keeping me busy. Pizza for dinner and the one redeeming item... SALAD!! With a high fat dressing!! Yes I have read every diet tip, I have taken classes taught by dietitians. What I am saying is, YES... I know better. To top it off, we went to a football game and when I told the kids they could buy one snack item each they also brought back popcorn "for your snack mom!" so of course I had to eat that and now I wanna HURL. Once made of corn... maybe. Now has more chemical entities than a mad-scientist's lab... definitely. EW, stomach ache express here we come!
Going walking in the AM, by myself if I must... oh and water, water, WATER!
Going walking in the AM, by myself if I must... oh and water, water, WATER!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Stagnant like a slimy pond
So this week my scale seems to be broken. Blame it on the inanimate object without feelings. On the plus side... not gaining for not trying real hard. Consciously working on portion size and control. For the first time in my life I am able to look at the food left before me knowing I am no longer hungry and NOT shovel it in until I burst. That's right, I have even thrown it away! I don't have to eat it because it tastes good or because it shouldn't go to waste or hell, even the usual: it's there.
Although I am not making progress I should be proud that I am strong and I have changed my life-long habits that were causing me constant grief! So why am I still not jazzed? Who knows, my mood has taken a plummet, probably just life crowding in and blocking the sun while the dark dirty algae multiplies in my soul. Ok, ok, so it's not that bad.... anyone who knows me knows that I never sink that low (or rarely anyway). So I'm just going to deal with the things within my realm of control and those that I can't, well... screw 'em!
Slowly progressing toward wanting to exercise again. Goal for this week is to take advantage of the last of the beautiful fall weather and get outside! Only I can make me.
Although I am not making progress I should be proud that I am strong and I have changed my life-long habits that were causing me constant grief! So why am I still not jazzed? Who knows, my mood has taken a plummet, probably just life crowding in and blocking the sun while the dark dirty algae multiplies in my soul. Ok, ok, so it's not that bad.... anyone who knows me knows that I never sink that low (or rarely anyway). So I'm just going to deal with the things within my realm of control and those that I can't, well... screw 'em!
Slowly progressing toward wanting to exercise again. Goal for this week is to take advantage of the last of the beautiful fall weather and get outside! Only I can make me.
Monday, October 4, 2010
New week and... blah blah blah you know the rest
Almost forgot to hop on the scale this morning, that's how little I have been caring lately about tracking and managing my weight goals. Dang it! Why am I struggling? Not really sure... Seems that I am happy to be where I am at, but then again.... not really. I am so ecstatic to not be making excuses of why my clothes don't fit or why I am hovering over the 200 lbs mark. But there is still alittle piece of me that has now become accustomed to being back at a much more reasonable size for my body and now thinks ICK! YOU SHOULD BE DOING BETTER THAN THIS! And what proactive and motivating activity does this alter-ego push me to do? Run a mile? no... Ride my bike? no.... Go for a walk? no, no, no! Take a bath and crawl into bed in the afternoon? BINGO!
Who doesn't battle with self-sabotage? We all do everyday. I don't care if someones life appears magical from the outside, even the most confident and happiest people are plagued with self doubt. We fight it every minute of every day. The most important weapon when fighting the bloody battle within your own brain is to always find the tiniest shred of a positive side to cling on to. What's mine? I have an amazing support system! I have a husband who is FINALLY on board with getting healthier and making positive changes. I have found a group of truly amazing and brave women who not only push me and encourage me to keep trying but are honest with each other and themselves. Women live in a world that makes it so hard to be real and talk about the nitty gritty and be confident that we won't be stoned in a public square for being open and honest. I also am confident in most of the decisions I make for my family. Sometimes I screw it up, but whatever, can't go back and change it, so work with it and move forward, right?
So here we go! Working with it and moving forward!
(And my wieght today? A yo-yo-ing 174)
Who doesn't battle with self-sabotage? We all do everyday. I don't care if someones life appears magical from the outside, even the most confident and happiest people are plagued with self doubt. We fight it every minute of every day. The most important weapon when fighting the bloody battle within your own brain is to always find the tiniest shred of a positive side to cling on to. What's mine? I have an amazing support system! I have a husband who is FINALLY on board with getting healthier and making positive changes. I have found a group of truly amazing and brave women who not only push me and encourage me to keep trying but are honest with each other and themselves. Women live in a world that makes it so hard to be real and talk about the nitty gritty and be confident that we won't be stoned in a public square for being open and honest. I also am confident in most of the decisions I make for my family. Sometimes I screw it up, but whatever, can't go back and change it, so work with it and move forward, right?
So here we go! Working with it and moving forward!
(And my wieght today? A yo-yo-ing 174)
Friday, September 24, 2010
Further proof that I am vanishing
I really thought this time I would be able to not burn myself out by not writing every day. Here I am again self-destructing! Well not yet anyway. Just got a little shocker and had to share. Had to remind myself to get on the scale this morning and write it down.... which I did and not much has changed in a couple weeks. I decided to update my little tracker on the side and realized it was about damn time I took my measurements again (as much as I dread it and think it's pointless) since it's been, what, like 5 months?? At my last measurement I had lost 1 measley inch in the whole 4 months of tracking. So after 5 months more of NO tracking.... add another 10 inches of disappearing flesh!! WHAT?? IMPOSSIBLE!! Not all in one area of course but spread over hips, waist and bust. Six inches vaporized just from my waist though!! YEAH!!! So after bandaging my toe from dropping the tape measure on it in the heat of the moment, here I am at the keyboard again.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
ROUND 2
SO I took a few months off... yeah so what?
Actually, I really felt like I was getting no where and it's hard to write about it and be honest when you aren't really trying. Somehow though, in the midst of all my wallowing in self pity and negativity... I met some great ladies and made some friends (shocking, I know). This was a HUGE boost to my outlook and life improved, I started trying again, yada yada yada...
One of my fabulous new friends has been overcoming her own hurdles with weight loss and is seeing fantastic results! She is much more dedicated than I am (yeah most people are) and pushes me to get my big ole booty moving. With tremendous focus, dedication and support (that last one is where I came in at) she has shed 50 pounds!! Yeah you better believe I am keeping her around!
With my slightly less enthusiastic ways I was somehow able to lose some weight myself. Since I started keeping this blog way back at the first of the year, I have lost up to, but not exceeding: 35 pounds. Impressive you say?? Well... that was a couple of weeks ago and ever since I got home from vacation I haven't been tracking or putting out the effort. AH! STOP IT! STOP IT NOW! I really don't want to undo all the awesomeness of wearing smaller sizes and having to get new clothes. NEED TO STAY ON TOP!
Yes... Life has been full of more ups and downs then usual, but that relly should be NO excuse. Time to start weighing myself every morning again and tracking what is working/not working. Time to clear all the clutter off of the abandoned treadmill and hop back on. Oh wait a minute... unpacking from vacation, I realized I somehow managed to get home with only one of my good walking shoes. How the hell did I do that you ask? Shucks, I don't know... typical though. So FIRST I need to go get a pair of walking shoes. I guess if I buy the same ones I really can say I have 2 left feet (haha, lame joke I know). So shoes... then treadmill!
Goals: Weigh in the morning, lots more water, smaller portions
Actually, I really felt like I was getting no where and it's hard to write about it and be honest when you aren't really trying. Somehow though, in the midst of all my wallowing in self pity and negativity... I met some great ladies and made some friends (shocking, I know). This was a HUGE boost to my outlook and life improved, I started trying again, yada yada yada...
One of my fabulous new friends has been overcoming her own hurdles with weight loss and is seeing fantastic results! She is much more dedicated than I am (yeah most people are) and pushes me to get my big ole booty moving. With tremendous focus, dedication and support (that last one is where I came in at) she has shed 50 pounds!! Yeah you better believe I am keeping her around!
With my slightly less enthusiastic ways I was somehow able to lose some weight myself. Since I started keeping this blog way back at the first of the year, I have lost up to, but not exceeding: 35 pounds. Impressive you say?? Well... that was a couple of weeks ago and ever since I got home from vacation I haven't been tracking or putting out the effort. AH! STOP IT! STOP IT NOW! I really don't want to undo all the awesomeness of wearing smaller sizes and having to get new clothes. NEED TO STAY ON TOP!
Yes... Life has been full of more ups and downs then usual, but that relly should be NO excuse. Time to start weighing myself every morning again and tracking what is working/not working. Time to clear all the clutter off of the abandoned treadmill and hop back on. Oh wait a minute... unpacking from vacation, I realized I somehow managed to get home with only one of my good walking shoes. How the hell did I do that you ask? Shucks, I don't know... typical though. So FIRST I need to go get a pair of walking shoes. I guess if I buy the same ones I really can say I have 2 left feet (haha, lame joke I know). So shoes... then treadmill!
Goals: Weigh in the morning, lots more water, smaller portions
Monday, April 5, 2010
New Day New Start
Sadly, I have fallen off the wagon many times in the last month... So much dedication at first and then... blah...
But I had planned on making a new start and I woke up to an unusually beautiful day with the sun smiling brightly at me! Hooray! Ready to make a fresh start! Going to get my excercise outside today and soak up some much needed vitamin D.
But I had planned on making a new start and I woke up to an unusually beautiful day with the sun smiling brightly at me! Hooray! Ready to make a fresh start! Going to get my excercise outside today and soak up some much needed vitamin D.
Monday, March 15, 2010
afternoon hike
Ventured out into the beautiful afternoon sunshine searching for the alleged pod of orcas that have been hanging around the Seattle ferry lines. What I didn't know was that the beach front park I was attempting to make my lounging pad and viewpoint was quite a hike from the easily accessed street front parking lot. Getting there worried me slightly as we wound our way through trails dotted with giant evergreens and then down a fair grade and down and down and down until we reached the sound. Beautiful warm spring afternoon, smell of saltwater in the air and my kids having a ball. Finally, as the sun is sinking lower and I am thinking if it gets any lower I will be concerned for our safety in an unfamiliar park that was quite a hike to get into, we make our return. My sweet innocent babes find a set of stairs that lead in a slightly different direction from the trail that I know will be burning my thighs by the time I reach the sweaty top.
Sure, let's go that way, why not?
An easy dozen or so man made steps in the side of a forest cliff and a turn. Another dozen or so and my breathing is getting quicker as we are steadily scaling what I am now sure is a giant mountain that my car is precariously perched atop. Oh look, another dozen or so before they seem to disappear at what must be near the end. Nope, another turn and more f-ing stairs. At this point I am wishing that whatever little rock is preventing my car from plummeting down the mountain and staight into me would slip. Believe it or not, more stairs. My breath is getting ragged and my normally energetic beyond belief kids are trying to hand off their pails and shovels and collection of beach treasures to me because they are feeling the burn. If I stop now, it may take a mountain climbing rescue crew a week to find me. More stairs. At least any threat of danger or violence I had envisioned in a starnge park has long ago disappeared since the only thing my oxygen deprived brain can comprehend is that there... are... more... stairs...
At some point as the madness left my brain and sanity returned, I realize we're back at the scenic overlook portion of the trail and we survived the never ending stairs from hell. Now if we can just figure out where the parking lot is from here in the last rays of the beautiful afternoon sun we can catch our breath on the long ride home!
Needless to say, I got my workout outside today...
Sure, let's go that way, why not?
An easy dozen or so man made steps in the side of a forest cliff and a turn. Another dozen or so and my breathing is getting quicker as we are steadily scaling what I am now sure is a giant mountain that my car is precariously perched atop. Oh look, another dozen or so before they seem to disappear at what must be near the end. Nope, another turn and more f-ing stairs. At this point I am wishing that whatever little rock is preventing my car from plummeting down the mountain and staight into me would slip. Believe it or not, more stairs. My breath is getting ragged and my normally energetic beyond belief kids are trying to hand off their pails and shovels and collection of beach treasures to me because they are feeling the burn. If I stop now, it may take a mountain climbing rescue crew a week to find me. More stairs. At least any threat of danger or violence I had envisioned in a starnge park has long ago disappeared since the only thing my oxygen deprived brain can comprehend is that there... are... more... stairs...
At some point as the madness left my brain and sanity returned, I realize we're back at the scenic overlook portion of the trail and we survived the never ending stairs from hell. Now if we can just figure out where the parking lot is from here in the last rays of the beautiful afternoon sun we can catch our breath on the long ride home!
Needless to say, I got my workout outside today...
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Nailing myself down
Had a wake up call not only from my kids again (love their enthusiasm!) but also from a terrific friend. She has a very motivational website aimed at getting you healthier (http://fittipdaily.com) which I love to read! She gave me a mention today and it has helped me want to get back in the game. My motivation has been so low and my desire to need exercise... well... let's be honest, it sucks! I know if I just kick my butt and get my head wrapped around it again it will get easier. Support is always helpful, so Thanks Adria! Back to making me feel held accountable again!
http://fittipdaily.com/blog-your-way-to-a-thinner-you-5021/
My kiddos have been grabbing my hands every night and excitedly shoving me toward the tv with cries of, "time to workout mom!!" Love those little monkies! They even make me move on to the harder levels of the workout if we've already done the easier ones. They laugh at me when I moan and groan, but they MAKE me do it. Pretty amazing!
http://fittipdaily.com/blog-your-way-to-a-thinner-you-5021/
My kiddos have been grabbing my hands every night and excitedly shoving me toward the tv with cries of, "time to workout mom!!" Love those little monkies! They even make me move on to the harder levels of the workout if we've already done the easier ones. They laugh at me when I moan and groan, but they MAKE me do it. Pretty amazing!
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